7.3.13

The Other Grey Girl – Part 13




I asked Gail to stay just as long until Elliot comes home. She sees that I am and feeling well and she agrees. I walk up the stairs and I crawl in bed, fully dressed. I leave the bedroom door open so that I could hear everything downstairs. I hate that I had to ask Gail to stay but, right now I couldn’t handle anything. I could hear how Gail was entertaining Teddy, Phoebe and Ava. I don’t know what I would do if Christian and Ana didn’t have Gail. Gail loved those kids as much as the kids loved Gail. I turned from my side onto my back and I stared at the ceiling.  I still haven’t called Elliot and I am dreading the fact that I promised him. I grab the handheld from its dock and dial Elliot´s office number. After a few rings, “Grey Constructions, Caroline speaking, how can I direct your call?” I take a deep breath, somewhere is was hoping that Elliot was in a meeting and he couldn’t talk to me that I had to leave a message. “Hi Caroline, its Kate again. Is Elliot free to talk?” I crossed my fingers hoping that she would say no. “Sure, I’ll direct your call, hang on.” I was surprised by the way Caroline talked to me. Usually we talk pleasantries but this time it looks like she was glad she could hand me over to Elliot. “Baby, are you okay? I couldn’t concentrate on the meeting.” He sounded relieved when I finally called. Slowly the tears are coming and I can’t keep it together anymore. “I am so sorry babe, it’s my entire fault.” I say trough my tears. “Baby, what’s going on? What happened? Are the babies okay? Are you okay?” Elliot fires his questions at me. And I can’t take it anymore; I take a deep breath and finally manage to find some words. “No Elliot, I am not okay.” Before I can say more Elliot cuts me off and says, “Screw the next meeting, I am coming home.” Before I protest against it he hangs up the phone. But I am still to numb to call him back and I curl my arms around my tummy and softly start to weep.

I crawl out of bed and walk to the bathroom and start running a bath. I put in a few drops of bath oil and soon the entire bathroom smells heavenly. I walk into my closet and start to undress my myself. I watch my naked self in the mirror and stroke my tummy. “I am so sorry my babies.” I whisper into the reflection. I grab my black with lace robe of its hanger and I slip in on. I stride back to the bedroom and grab my book of the bedside table and think about the time Ana almost ordered me to read it. “You need to read this. It’s a light read and you can read before bed time when Elliot is too tired to do something else.” It almost makes me smile, but I can’t help me self that I start to cry again. I stride back to the bathroom and slip out of my robe and step into the bathtub. The heat of the water calms my body down, just like I needed. I closed my eyes but I couldn’t keep them closed, because all I saw and heard was Dr. Greene saying that I could lose my babies. It is echoing in my head over and over again. Somewhere far away I heard Ava shouting “Daddy! Mommy upstairs and she is crying.” Her high pitched voice echoes in the hallway and I hear her little feet running, although I can’t hear where she is going. Later I recognize Elliot running up the stairs. “Kate? Sweetie? Where are you?” I take a deep breath and sink under the water making my hair wet and come back up again and see Elliot sitting on the edge of the bathtub. “Sweetie, what the hell is going on?” When I see his worried face I start to cry again. “I am a screw, Elliot. That’s what’s wrong.” I wipe away some tears. Elliot slips out of his shoes and quickly undresses himself. I move forward in the tub and the water splashes over the edge on the floor. Elliot slips in behind and I lean back. “Tell me, what’s wrong.” He says soothingly. While crying I told Elliot what Dr. Greene had said.

The days after Elliot took some time off and he really spoiled me. It made me even guiltier. Of course Ava was happy, now her father was around, and was upstairs lying on the bed. I read book and watched TV. Elliot allowed me out of bed only for dinner. And every night he took a long bath with me and massaged my back. And every day I felt less guilty and stopped feeling like a failure.

The day finally arrived that Ana and Christian would come home. I had secret phone-calls with Jason Taylor and I knew when they would arrive so we could surprise them. I didn’t tell Phoebe or Teddy and that morning I we told them that we would go somewhere but it was a surprise. So the car was packed and we were on our way to the airport. It didn’t take long before they knew where we were going. Elliot let us out at the back of the entrance and drove away to park the car. While in the distance we saw the GEH Jet approaching Teddy and Phoebe were ecstatic. Finally the plane landed and the door opened and I told Teddy and Phoebe that they could go closer. Ana and Christian came running down the stairs and hugged their children. It made me weak in the knees but luckily Elliot supported me. I stopped working at the office but I did some research from home for Mrs. Young every now and then. I had weekly appointments with Dr. Greene, to keep track of my blood pressure. And I was pleased to hear after 2 weeks all was heading in the right direction.

After my appointment I decided to pay my mother-in-law a visit. I already contacted Carrick to see if she was working. I walked into the hallway and stopped at the elevator and pressed the button. In the time Elliot was home we talked about hiring a nanny for Ava and Christian helped us. We hired Victoria James. She was 24 years old and majored in child psychology and Christian did a full background check on her and she was cleared. Ava was happy with her and we were happy with her. When then doors opened my phone rang and when I saw it was Elliot, I answered, “Hi baby,” I said happy. “Wow, you sound relieved!” He said relieved. “I guess all was good?” I snort, “Yes we are heading in the right direction. Sorry babe, but I am just stepping in the elevator and the connection might get lost. I am going to stop by your mother and then I am coming home.” “Okay sweetie, I’ll be home in an hour or so.” Elliot says and then the connection fails.  I press the button and the elevator whisks me to the 16th floor and I step out and walk my way to Grace’s office. I hear mumbling and hushed voices when I reach her office. And because her door is aloof I don’t think she is with a patient so I knock on the door and I push it open and a person with a ski-mask and a syringe and injection Grace with something. I don’t know if this person saw me but quickly I turn around and make my way back into the hallway and stop at the office on the left side. Christian order Welch to post the Hospital when Grace was working. With a loud bang I opened the door and shouted, “Grace, I mean Dr. Grey , I mean Mrs. Grey, somebody is trying to kidnap her.” Welch shoots up from his chair and barks orders to the other security people and in a blur they run out. The only one who is left behind is, Ms. Prescott. “Mrs. Grey, you are shaking like a leaf. Please sit down.” I do as she says and can’t do nothing else than gaze straight ahead. Ms. Prescott pulls me out of my reverie as she hands we a glass of water, I look up to her, “Thank you.” I give her a half smile.

Suddenly the door shoot open again and I jump up, Welch is on the phone barking orders. Something about a S.W.A.T team. I tune out most of the noise and rock to and fro on my chair. The next three hours have been kind of lost. It all went by in some kind of blur and the next moment I am sitting next to Grace, while she is lying there on the hospital bed……

6.3.13

Hearts and Flowers


I snort, suddenly remembering the last time we crossed the lawn under the moonlight to the boathouse. Oh, perhaps that’s what we’re going to do now. I grin.
“What?”
“I remember the last time you took me to the boathouse.”
Christian chuckles quietly. “Oh, that was fun. In fact . . .” He suddenly stops and scoops me over his shoulder, and I squeal, though we don’t have far to go.

“You were really angry, if I remember correctly,” I gasp.
“Anastasia, I’m always really angry.” 
“No you’re not.”
 He swats my behind as he stops outside the wooden door. He slides me down his body back to the ground and takes my head in his hands.
 “No, not anymore.” Leaning down, he kisses me, hard. When he pulls away, I’m breathless and desire is racing round my body.


 He gazes down at me, and in the glow of the strip of light coming from inside the boathouse, I can see he’s anxious. My anxious man, not a white knight or a dark knight, but a man—a beautiful, not-quite-so-fucked-up man—whom I love. I reach up and caress his face, running my fingers through his sideburns and along his jaw to his chin, then let my index finger touch his lips. He relaxes.

“I’ve something to show you in here,” he murmurs and opens the door.
The harsh light of the fluorescents illuminates the impressive motor launch in the dock, bobbing gently on the dark water. There’s a row boat beside it.
“Come.” Christian takes my hand and leads me up the wooden stairs. Opening the door at the top, he steps aside to let me in.

My mouth drops to the floor. The attic is unrecognizable. The room is filled with flowers . . . there
are flowers everywhere. Someone has created a magical bower of beautiful wild meadow flowers mixed with glowing fairy lights and miniature lanterns that glow soft and pale round the room.
My face whips round to meet his, and he’s gazing at me, his expression unreadable. He shrugs.
“You wanted hearts and flowers,” he murmurs.
 I blink at him, not quite believing what I’m seeing. “You have my heart.” And he waves toward the room. “And here are the flowers,” I whisper, completing his sentence. “Christian, it’s lovely.” I can’t think of what else to say. My heart is in my mouth as tears prick my eyes.

Tugging my hand, he pulls me into the room, and before I know it, he’s sinking to one knee in front of me. Holy hell . . . I did not expect this! I stop breathing.
From his inside jacket pocket he produces a ring and gazes up at me, his eyes bright gray and raw, full of emotion.
“Anastasia Steele. I love you. I want to love, cherish, and protect you for the rest of my life. Be mine. Always. Share my life with me. Marry me.”

I blink down at him as my tears fall. My Fifty, my man. I love him so, and all I can say as the tidal wave of emotion hits me is, “Yes.”
He grins, relieved, and slowly slides the ring on my finger. It’s beautiful, an oval diamond in a platinum ring. Jeez—it’s big . . . Big, but oh-so-simple and stunning in its simplicity.

“Oh, Christian,” I sob, suddenly overwhelmed with joy, and I join him on my knees, my fingers fisting in his hair as I kiss him, kiss him with all my heart and soul. Kiss this beautiful man, who loves me as I love him; and as he wraps his arms around me, his hands moving to my hair, his mouth on mine. I know deep down I will always be his, and he will always be mine. We’ve come so far together, we have so far to go, but we are made for each other. We are meant to be.




27.2.13

The Other Grey Girl – Part 12



The days after that horrible nightmare are calm. I spoke to Grace and Carrick and this Debbie woman admitted that the allegation was false and that her son is not Christian’s child. So the Grey family could live their lives again. Apparently at Carrick scared her by saying that is she doesn’t tell the truth the he would sue her. I don’t know exactly for what, because I am not a lawyer. She told The Seattle Times that it was a false accusation and that she regrets the fact that by her actions people got hurt. So luckily we could close that chapter and Ana and Christian remain in the dark and still don’t know anything. They are still at the Bahamas for a few days. They are coming back on Tuesday. The weekend is coming and we are having dinner at Carrick and Grace on Saturday. I walk over to the kitchen, my brand new kitchen. Over the last few months Elliot has been remodeling our home and the kitchen has turned out beautiful. I look at the calendar and I see I have an appointment with Dr. Greene at 2 pm. I pick up the land line and call Elliot. “Grey Construction, Caroline speaking. How may I direct your call?” Caroline is Elliot’s assistant. She is a wonderful person with a big heart. Happily married with four children. “Hi Caroline, its Kate. How are you?” I like talking to her. “Hi, good morning Kate, how are you?” We talk a little and then I ask her, “Can I talk to Elliot, I really need to speak to him.” “He is in a meeting at the moment but I can try if he picks up. Hold on please.” A cheesy song is playing and it’s making me laugh. “Baby, are you okay?” I hear Elliot is worried. “Yes baby, I am okay. Look I have an appointment at two with Dr. Greene. Are you free then to watch the kids or should I call Gail to see if she has an hour or so.” Elliot clears his throat. “Oh baby, I have meetings all day today. And I can’t miss them. Do you mind calling Gail?” he says apologizing. “Baby, it’s okay. I totally forgot I had an appointment. It’s my entire fault. Don’t worry, I’ll fix it.” “Okay, look I gotta go. I love you, laters, baby.” And he hangs up.
Maybe I should reschedule my appointment with Dr. Greene, I feel amazing but then again I don’t. So maybe I should go. Call Gail first before you make a decision, my subconscious yells. I pick up the phone and call Gail. “Grey residence, Gail speaking, how can I help you?” Gail’s sweet voice sounds like an angel. “Hi Gail, its Kate. I have a question, can you take care of the kids for an hour or so. I have an appointment with Dr. Greene and Elliot has meetings the entire day.” I say apologizing. Because I know its last minute and all. “Sure, I would love to. Shall I come to you or do you bring here?” I take a minute to think what would be wise. “I think it’s best if you come here, because Ana and Christian are still in the Bahamas, might be really confusing for Teddy and Phoebe.” We finish our conversation and I walk back to the laundry room, and on the peek in the children’s playroom to see what the kids are up too. Teddy is playing with his Lego and the girls are playing with their dolls. I kind of feel sorry for Teddy; he is playing all by himself. “Aunt Kate, look what I build?” Teddy says proud. He build a according to him all kinds of buildings, and a park. “Wow, Teddy. It’s great.” He walks up to me and says, “Maybe I can go to work with Uncle Lelliot, one day. And build things with him.” I smile fondly at him. Already having dreams. “Yes, maybe one day.” I walk to the girl and bend down and look what they up to. They are playing with their Barbie´s and wish not to be disturbed. Ava waves me away and I walk back to the door. The only thing I can do is laugh.

When its noon there is a knock on the door. “That must be Gail.” I say to the kids who’ve joined me in the living room. Teddy bolts up and Phoebe follows him and together they run to the front door. “GAIL!” they shout together. I gather my stuff and I make my way to the hallway where is putting away her coat. “Gail, thank you so much, I know it is a bit last minute. But I totally forgot my appointment.” I apologize again. “It’s okay Kate; I love to watch the kids.” She gives me a quick hug.
When I step into my car and turn the key to start the engine the radio comes to life and Shania Twain starts to sing that someone has a way with her and I start to mimic with the lyrics. This is the song Elliot and I danced to when I was Mrs. Grey. I am totally lost in thoughts until a car horn brings me back; I was swirling on the road. In about a half an hour I turned right and drove on the parking lot at the Hospital. As I walked from my car to the elevators I had the creepy feeling that someone was watching me. I tried to wave it away. Lately it’s like I’ve been seeing ghosts ever since my nightmare. I way my throat and run my hand through my hair and adjust my ponytail and continue my way to the elevator. I hear and feel my phone buzzing and I squad down and put my purse on the ground and I start rummaging it in search for my phone. When I when to screen I see its Elliot’s office. “Yes? Hello? This is Kate?” I answer. “Hi babe, I was just checking in to see how you are doing. I understand that Gail is at the house watching the kids?” and then I realize that I totally forget to tell him that Gail could watch the kids. “Oh baby, I am so sorry, I totally forgot to tell that Gail had time to watch the kids. My mind is so scattered lately.” I hear Elliot chuckle on the other side. “Are you laughing at me?” I smirk. “Nope, I wouldn’t dare he says.” I shake my head; I can’t believe I love this man so much. “Look, I was just about to step into the elevator; I’ll call you as soon when I am done with Dr. Greene, okay?” I wait before I step into the elevator. “Sure babe, I’ll talk to you soon.” We say our goodbyes and I step into the elevator.

As I sit and waiting in the waiting room I pick up a magazine and see that Ana and Christian are on the cover. Quickly I skip to the article, the headline reads, “Mr. and Mrs. Grey a formula for success.” The article goes on and on about the success Christian booked over the years, the farming division of WSU has several breakthroughs with the money Christian donated over the years. There is also a part about Ana. The success she made with Grey Publishing by attracting so many promising young authors. Before I could finish reading the article, Dr. Greene’s assistant calls my name. I gather my things and walk to Dr. Greene’s office. After the ultrasound, Dr. Greene checks my blood pressure and I see her face expression change. “Is there something wrong?” I ask worried. ‘Well, your blood pressure is too high, I want you to stop working immediately and stay at home and take a lot of rest. Only then the safety of the twins is guaranteed. And avoid stress.” Dr. Greene says without any shame. “But my babies are alright, right?” Is all I can manage. “Yes, your babies are fine. But do as I told, or else the chance is there, that you’ll lose the babies.” Jeez, she is taking no prisoners. “Thank you doctor. Quickly and quiet I walk out of her office still numb. I wanted to go see Grace, but suddenly all I want to do is go home and go to bed. How can I jeopardize the life of my babies. I feel such a failure. And how I am going to tell Elliot and the rest of the family about this……..?